So I don't really want to be on here right now to much hit going on to care about DA I might not be on for like a year or so and if I find that I have NOTHING at all to do then I might come on. just right now there's to much confusion and shit going on.this month has been like crap. not going to use names in my ranting, the only names i will use are Josh and Cody. can't talking to Cody because of his grade in calculus (that was this week) and that makes me super sad 'cause i love talking to him and i miss him a lot. been pulled in to way to much drama for my liking and it was rather I was in the middle of it or right on top of it.

one of my so called "best friends" has been making me feel like shit this whole month 'cause she dumps all her crap on me when really i'm fucking over it. one of my best guy friends asked me out and i have some feelings for him, but i have feelings for Cody like a lot of feelings for him, but if i date one i hurt the other, i hate it when this happens to me 'cause when they are really good friends i don't want to hurt them because it hurts to know that i did hurt them, and i don't understand why this happens to me 'cause i'm average looking and i'm real bitchy sometime so i just don't get it. another one of my friends got pissed at me for telling the other what she said about her 'cause she was planing on trying to steel her boyfriend and that pissed me off to no end 'cause i don't have tolerance for things like that. one of my best friends is with a guy who doesn't deserve her at all 'cause he treats her like shit most of the time and it pisses me off that i can only sit there and watch, i really don't like watching my friends or family get hurt. still pissed at what Josh did to my sister and i kinda want to hurt him real bad but can't.

then another of my friends thinks i'm disloyal and she says she not mad at me but i'm 100% sure she is and is a gay reason to be mad at me and i think she might thing i'm going to be a bitch and try to go out with him when really he's just someone to talk to, she ended it with him over txt and I think thats a real dick move 'cause no matter how long you have dated someone dumping them over txt it is just plain wrong, asked a few of my friends if talking to him was wrong and they all said no told them the whole story and they didn't think highly of her and said a few things about her, they told me she was over reacting and i don't know nor do i give a shit anymore 'cause i'm just done with it i cant put up with her shit right now.

sorry for all of this you didn't have to read all of it if your reading this i really just need to get this off my chest i have to much going on and right now i'm going crazy once again sorry and i'm sorry if you are some of the people i'm talking about and you get pissed go on and txt me tell me call comment but don't think i will comment back 'cause right now i don't want to talk to you and i wont answer at all i just don't give two shits about some of you right now